well maybe my doctor has his own reason for his changes with medicine, he called me today because i need a referral and he was out a few days he just had surgery in his shoulder and neck. well i guess he may have had personal reasons for his actions lately and i took them personally, he told me a few months ago he wished he could take stronger pain meds himself he was in pain and said he takes the occasional vicodan only when severe and he said believe me its easy for me to get any medicine being a doctor. well he was cheerful and concerned today and reccommended me to a nuerologist and his surgeon for the spine. maybe he was acting with the sudden change in attitude towards me cause he was having his own chronic pain and was dealing with it and expected me to also. well i will see him and discuss options with him and keep everyone informed. he said he didnt realize my mri's showed so many problems.well he called my cell and left me the specialist numbers from his house an hour ago, so atleast hes showing some concern now. maybe he see;s how it feels being in severe pain now that he had to get surgery himself.