Ruptured a couple discs in my back, was my fault. This was 3 years ago. Did the PT and was managing with Epidurals and pain pills. In Feb of this year, had a epidural cause a infection in my spine. I was in and out of the hospital 3 times for a total of 3 weeks. Now I have 3 ruptured/degenerated discs. Not sure what ones, just know they are the lower ones.
Did P.T. again, did not help much.
Have been off work on long term disability since feb. Pain dr has me on 40 mg er oxy's, 2 per 24 hours. Also take xanax for obvious reasons.
Problem is my work does not involve heavy lifting but a lot of travel. I have had to miss a lot of work due to back pain. They put me on long term disability and basically said, do not come back until your back is fixed, IE surgery.
I have been to 3 neurosurgeons. All 3 say my back is really bad for a 40 year old, worse than they have seen for my age. None gave me much hope with the offer of a Spinal Fusion. One was very blunt and only gave me a 40-70 percent chance of improvement. Plus I am worried about all the stress and strain it will put on my good discs.
I can get by most days pretty good with my pain meds. Surgery scares the living you know what outta me. I do not want to get it done. My feeling of self worth is really low due to not working. Feeling very depressed. I know I need to go back to work but am afraid of going back and then having to take time off for my back again, not an option. My Pain Dr says another epidural is NOT an option, I would not get one anyways. Just feel pressured into this surgery without good odds. Plus the recovery is not pleasant. Feel really hopeless.
Thanks for letting me vent here...