This is my first holiday season since getting hurt, and I am Struggling.
First off, 1 year ago today my friend (who watches my children) became a foster parent to a litle girl. We have all grown so attached to her. A few months ago we knewn she would go up for adoption. I concidered it (I love her to death) but I didn't think that it was fair that her adoptive mom was crippled so I didn't. Today is her first birthday, and I know that she is going to her new family soon. While I know this is best (logiacally), emotionally I am struggling (not near as much as my friend and I am trying to suppourt her).
Second, Boxing Day, I was at Safeway with my kids. My oldest (11) was buying his own stuff and the cashier asked him about Chritmas. His response?
"Okay but not so good cause I had to help MOM."
I am so hurt. Am I over reacting? My boyfriend of 2 years left cause I was hurt, do you think that influenced what my boy sais?
Tonight, my youngest (9) said that it's ok that I'm since I'm hurt. That hurts too.
Plus my friend Ben. He always made me feel better, and now he's gone I miss him so much. Ussually when this stuff happened talk to him.
I miss him so much.