Are you really depressed if you really want to feel good and go on, but you feel like crap? I've had a ALIF in July, 08 and one of the cages migrated causing more pain, so in December I had a PLIF and had 6 screws put in. I went back to work part time four weeks ago, but it's been so hard. I'm very fatigue and just feel crappy. Since going back to work, I've had neck, shoulder blade, arm symptoms and pain...hurts when I breath type of thing. My NS put me on a prednisone pack which I finished two days ago. Then, this week, I came down with a cold/sinus, so I went to the clinic and was positive for the flu. I'm coughing, congested and ache all over, have a low grade temp. I'm working from home but finding it so hard to concentrate. I'm out of leave and in the hole. We don't have short term disability or anything to help once you run out...so I've taken no-pay leave when I have to. I'm the lead supervisor and one of my employees has gum disease and is out a lot seeing specialists and oral surgeons to get opinions on his plot. They've told him he'll have to have all his teeth pulled and get dentures. He's 28 years old. My other senior person is scheduled for 3 weeks off to have knee surgery the 19th of this month. Work load is tremendous and new work is coming in every day.
I'm really stressed and have anxiety, feel like the world is all on me and I have the flu and feel crappy, but I'm having to be coherent and attend meetings and do work from home. I want to scream and cry, but it won't do any good.
Just wanted to vent. Thanks for listening. My shoulders and neck are aching to beat the band and seems like my low back is joining in too. I had my last PLIF surgery on 12/4 and they only let me be off thru to 02/04 so two months. Sometimes I feel like I want to retire early and just deal with the money issues instead of dealing with all of this stress.
I've moved and don't have a good GP so see. My NS is really stiff and not a good listener. I just want to feel good for a change. Could I be depressed? Can depression really make you feel like crap? I've been thinking that I have fibromyalgia, since I have had (for about 10 years now) increasing achiness in my muscles, fatigue, mouth sores, vaginal sores (that were tested for herpes twice, but negative), all my CBC regular blood tests have come back normal. I'm just so tired of not knowing what to do or who to see or who will listen.