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I just want to feel good again

candle99ccandle99 Posts: 279
edited 06/11/2012 - 8:28 AM in Depression and Coping
Hi all,

Are you really depressed if you really want to feel good and go on, but you feel like crap? I've had a ALIF in July, 08 and one of the cages migrated causing more pain, so in December I had a PLIF and had 6 screws put in. I went back to work part time four weeks ago, but it's been so hard. I'm very fatigue and just feel crappy. Since going back to work, I've had neck, shoulder blade, arm symptoms and pain...hurts when I breath type of thing. My NS put me on a prednisone pack which I finished two days ago. Then, this week, I came down with a cold/sinus, so I went to the clinic and was positive for the flu. I'm coughing, congested and ache all over, have a low grade temp. I'm working from home but finding it so hard to concentrate. I'm out of leave and in the hole. We don't have short term disability or anything to help once you run out...so I've taken no-pay leave when I have to. I'm the lead supervisor and one of my employees has gum disease and is out a lot seeing specialists and oral surgeons to get opinions on his plot. They've told him he'll have to have all his teeth pulled and get dentures. He's 28 years old. My other senior person is scheduled for 3 weeks off to have knee surgery the 19th of this month. Work load is tremendous and new work is coming in every day.

I'm really stressed and have anxiety, feel like the world is all on me and I have the flu and feel crappy, but I'm having to be coherent and attend meetings and do work from home. I want to scream and cry, but it won't do any good.

Just wanted to vent. Thanks for listening. My shoulders and neck are aching to beat the band and seems like my low back is joining in too. I had my last PLIF surgery on 12/4 and they only let me be off thru to 02/04 so two months. Sometimes I feel like I want to retire early and just deal with the money issues instead of dealing with all of this stress.

I've moved and don't have a good GP so see. My NS is really stiff and not a good listener. I just want to feel good for a change. Could I be depressed? Can depression really make you feel like crap? I've been thinking that I have fibromyalgia, since I have had (for about 10 years now) increasing achiness in my muscles, fatigue, mouth sores, vaginal sores (that were tested for herpes twice, but negative), all my CBC regular blood tests have come back normal. I'm just so tired of not knowing what to do or who to see or who will listen.


  • You could be depressed. I'd be surprised if you aren't. I am. We are damaged goods and you have had one massive amount of stress placed on you. Surgery, Flu, Work. Try to get through the Flu part and you'll likely start to feel better.

    I know its not a big help, but I try to look at the present mess as the past. It has all happened before and will again.
    I just tell myself, "This too shall pass". If not the condition at least the day!
  • I agree with Wrambler on this one. I think ou will find that if went to see a mental heath professional that they would prescribe you something to help with the depression and anxiety. That is not to say you will have to be on them forever but it will help you get through all that is going on now. Depression and anxiety take a heavy toll on the body. And yes depression can make you feel like "crap" - I have battled depression and anxiety for 13 years and with my injury it has gotten worse.
    Also, if you have the opportunity you may want to see a neurologist to see if you do have fibromyalgia. Many people who have it take a med called Lyrica for that and it seems to help them quite a bit.
    The best piece of advice I can give you (although it is easier said than done) is to take things one day at a time and one problem at a time. Try not to dwell on what may happen in the future.
    I hope you get to feeling better soon and always remember we are here for you to vent to anytime you feel the need.

  • perhaps too well and gone back too soon. You have had 2 massive surgeries in 9 months or so. You must insist that your employers buffer you, perhaps work part time or something or agree a return to work plan with HR.
    I know that is easy to say but you have to worry about you and NOW. You only have one back and a fusion is a little bit more demanding on the body than major tooth extraction, imho.

    Please, be careful. I wish you well and hope you take a step back.
  • dilaurodilauro ConnecticutPosts: 9,865
    Many spinal patients who have had surgery try to come back into the 'normal' life too soon. When that does happen, you always run the risk of creating additional problems.
    When you start dealing with chronic pain, and I am not sure if that begins after your first, third or xx surgery, there are so many adjustments that have to be made.
    Stress, Depression, Anxiety, are just some of the adjectives that can describe what chronic patients have to go through.

    Its so much easier for me to say how to deal with this, considering I am going on 33+ years of chronic pain. There are always ups/downs, but some of my best advice is just follow all the restriction and limitations the doctors have given you. Look towards never repeating a surgery.

    Venting is good, it is very healthy. And for some, they find that venting at home has its limits. You do not want to become a burden on your loved ones. That is just one of the additional benefits you have here on Spine-Health.
    You can vent, you can cry, you can laugh, you can get mad, almost all members understand these feelings and will never judge another members actions.
    Ron DiLauro Spine-Health System Administrator
    I am not a medical professional. I comment on personal experiences
    You can email me at: rdilauro@veritashealth.com
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