Wife says she wants out now. We have had our ups & downs & we have both hurt each other in our own ways. Since I had my fusion done 9/25/08 she was there in the beginning & these last 2-3 months she has been distant. She never wants to be close anymore? My son is leaving today to go out of town for 10 days so I will be staying overthere. On top of all this I deal with pain everyday & some sort of depression. I have lost all friends. The future is very dark at this point. No job, back is not any better & now losing my wife. Whats next. I swear sometimes it would just be so easy to swallow a bottle of painkillers.