I keep experiencing episodes of pain that travels the course directly up my spine from my tailbone to just below my shoulder blades. It's not "bone pain" or mechanical pain - it's like an intense pressure w/ an irritating quality of 'pain' that feels "liquid" because it engulfs my spine but has no definitive boundaries. It feels as though I've been injected with chemicals. When these episodes occur, all of my muscles/ joints ache and my left sided headaches & facial pain grows more intense (suboccipital neuralgia). It's not excruciating because the "volume" of the pain isn't very loud - yet it's harsh and severe in quality. I hope that makes sense. I feel feverish during these spells but don't have a fever - except that my normal temp is 97.5 and it's up to 98.5 during these times. Is that considered a fever for me?
Has anyone ever felt this? Can you tell me what it is? I don't know what brings it on. If I lie down, it's worse - I don't know if it's because my mind isn't busy so the pain distraction isn't there - or if it's just lying down that increases it.
I've been given scripts of Vicodin (5/500) for the radiculpathy and fibromyalgia over the years but I've never needed it around the clock like I do now. I'm terrified of addiction. Death would be better so I ask myself why don't I just take the narcotics and kill myself later if they're ever taken away from me. Has anyone ever regretted taking narcotics or can anyone advise me on what to do. I can't take Ultram because it interacts horribly with the Cymbalta that I take. Lyrica makes my pain worse...Just figured that out today.
The regular chronic pain is I don't feel I have the strength to keep my body erect anymore. All of my life, I've only been able to walk 45 minutes before my lower back feels like it's going to snap. Now, it feels that way constantly and is worse if I stand still. Walking is better than standing. (?) Why is that??? All of my life, I've had severe pain if I stood up straight with my shoulders back - now I feel the severe pain even in a relaxed posture. If I twist left or right with my waist or my neck, I get pins and needles upper or lower. I'm 48 and feel like I'm 90.
Neck stretches antagonize my unilateral headaches/facial pain as well as the radiculpathy in my arm. The only PT I can do is lumbar strengthening on the floor.
I've been on SSDI for five years - and wish I was dead. Please don't give me suicide links - I've got them.
Thank you in advance to anyone who can/will comment on anything I've written.