Hi, Just thought maybe I should try this. Had spinal fusion and laminectomy 3wks ago. Been out of work since January 2009. Single mom with daughter in 2nd year of college, supporting her college and myself. Broke up with boyfriend of 6 months 4 days after I came home from hospital, a long overdue breakup, but having somewhat of a hard time of it. Known for being a strong independent woman, and now I feel everything is just falling apart. I barely have any money left and I'm still in pain and tonight I feel as if i'm having a breakdown of some sort. I am on disabilty thou its only half pay and have gone thru my savings. I used to have such inner strength, but I don't know where it went and tonight i'm having a really rough time. Been crying for hours, fought with my daughter about money. Oh yes, smoking I was suppose to give it up and with all this I just can't so i'm worried about healing. Im sure many other people have been where i am and made thru, can you give me some advice?