I am 7 weeks post laminectomy and lumbar fusion (with rods and screws) at L5 S1. This is the second surgery in the same area the first being 5 years ago. The surgery went well, my hospital stay was good and I have a very supportive partner (who is an LPN). I have struggled with anxiety and depression in the past (which I currently take medication for) but I am so frustrated right now. I feel useless. I cannot do any of the things I did in the past (well, I guess saying any thing is an exaggeration but you know what I mean). I feel I cannot do the simplest of things that I would never have had to think about in the past. I am limited to a lifting restriction to a gallon of milk...which is not much. I have just been getting so frustrated with the limitations that I have. Then when I go things I should not I pay big time physically. I have still been taking muscle relaxers and painkillers for 7 weeks which my dr. does not have a problem with but I am worried about the addiction possibility. I have times of uncontrollable crying which comes out of no where and have a hard time sleeping (it is now 410am). I know I need to be patient but I am very frustrated with my progress. Whoever may read this thanks for letting me unload some of my frustrations.