Hi everyone, I can't tell you how sick and tired I am of having chronic pain- the never ending low back pain, nerve pain in both legs, and of course the muscle spasms. I wish I did have something uplifting to share with you all, instead of the same old thing. But anyway, I will be having yet another surgery next month...a permanent morphine pump implantation.
The trial went pretty well, it was a single injection of morphine into the intracecal space. I don't remember any of it because I was sedated. I woke up in recovery with a lot of soreness in my back from the injection site. I was so sore that I didn't notice that the unrelenting agonizing pain in my legs had diminished. The injection lasted about 2 days...what a disapointment when it wore off- I was back to "normal".
I went in for a follow up appointment at my PM clinic and gave them the green light. The trial gave me a 50% reduction in pain, and I know my doctors will help me manage the other half. I was told the pump doesn't take all the pain away or cure the problem, but it helps you to function better. I will still need to take something orally for breakthrough pain and I'll be off the MS Contin gradually. They will also adjust the amount of medication in the pump until a therapeutic level is reached.
However it won't fix the permanent nerve damage in one of my legs according to a nurse. It can't reverse the weakness either so I'll just continue to use my cane as usual. I don't mind too much as long as I won't have to put up with so much pain I hope.
Well, I stare at my calendar and count the days til the big event. It will be an overnight stay at the hospital if all goes well, but the recovery period is 6-8 weeks long with restrictions. You can't move around a bunch because the body needs to heal so the the unit that holds the medicine can securely anchor down. It's the size of a can of chew and it holds 40cc. And, you also have the catheter to think about; the last thing you want is for it to migrate or get damaged. The battery lasts up to 5 years and then the pump has to be replaced.
I can't wait to do activities that I haven't been able to engage in for a long time. I want to go swimming, driving, walking, shopping without all the pain and discomfort. I want to sit up comfortably again. I've missed out on a lot of things. I know I'll never go back to how I once was prior to injuring my back, but I hope to recapture those little things in life I took for granted before all this happened. How wonderful it would be for my family to come home and find me sitting on the couch, and not laying in bed. I don't know how I would have made out without them.
To be continued... :H
PS I want to thank all my Spiney friends; I wouldn't have had the courage to go through all that I have without the contributions of advice, support and knowledge from all of you