I went out last night for the first time since New Years Eve.
Dinner,dancing(I watched)and visited a few of the local pubs.Am I paying for it today..absolutely. Was it worth it...every minute of it. It feels good to be part of socializing again. Do not get me wrong I have wonderful friends but all my activities have been very quiet ones for quite some time. I feel ALIVE again. I was always very active before my pain set in full force and have lived a very quiet life for almost a year. Maybe I have finally accepted it is what it is and life goes on so I have to go on also. Will I let my pain stop me in the future? I dont think so. I think I am finally accepting the unacceptable.