I am seeing a new ortho tomorrow, and I am very nervous. I had an L4/L5 discectomy in 2002, and since last September I have been dealing with muscle spasms and intense radiating nerve pain/sciatica. These symptoms now include left foot pain and minor swelling, as well as poor reflexes in my big toe.
I have had bad luck with orthos in the past. The doctor who did my discectomy was a cold and compassionless man, and I vowed after my last post-op visit with him I'd never see him again. When I had a flare-up two years ago, I saw another ortho, who was okay, but when I saw him in January regarding this most recent episode, he attributed it to having just had a baby (in June '08) and carrying the car seat, bending over, etc. In essence, he did nothing. I had better luck with going to a walk-in clinic, where a doc did set me up with a portable TENS unit. It has offered some relief, but not with the nerve pain. From January on, I suffered daily and wordlessly--too much to do, no time to go to the doc, nothing is really wrong with me to fix...blah blah blah. Finally, in June, I went to the local family practice clinic hoping to become established and have them help me get to the bottom of it. They went to PT, and I went religiously (18 sessions!). At the end of July, my back just went kaput. Horrible, unbearable spasms and nerve pain that left me breathless and in tears. When I asked for the family practice clinic to order an MRI, I was refused based on ortho #2's report following our "chat" in January.
That brings me to ortho #3 tomorrow. I know I need to lose weight, but walking even a half mile keeps me up at night with pain. So I know he'll tell me that. I am hoping for another MRI to figure out what the issue is, and I have two fears:
1) What if they find nothing wrong with me? What then?
2) What if they find something wrong with me? What then?
Does that make sense?
Thanks for reading this. As foolish as it sounds, I am afraid to go to the doctor b/c I don't think I can take another cold, disinterested doctor. Ugh.