that the flare-ups seem so debilitating, when the pain isn't anywhere close to being as bad as the pain I was in prior to surgery? I mean, before, I couldn't be upright without my neck, shoulders, arm and hand screaming at me, and even laying down, the pain made me writhe. There was no relief, not even hydromorphone touched the pain, didn't even take the edge off. Now, I'm back to work, although by the end of the day, I'm done, so tired, and my neck and shoulders are yelling at me. But I start the day out at my baseline pain, as someone else put it in another thread. The days that it remains at baseline, those are the really good days. But the flare-ups, on the really bad days, when it's my headaches, my neck, the spasms in my traps, my back, and my leg, knees and the cramping in my foot and hands just kicks the crap out of me. The only difference between now and then with the flare ups, is that the radicular pain in my neck, arms and hands is so much less. Maybe I'm more tired than I was before? I'm letting it get to me and giving in to it? Honestly, sometimes I feel like such a drama queen by letting it get to me, which just makes me feel worse. Why can't I just "suck it up and carry on" like I used to?
APROUD CANADIANveteranButNOTa doctor, my thoughts are my own