anyone else get scared about the future?
i'm just really feeling it tonight. scared i won't live to see 60. scared my meds will stop working. scared of every new ache & pain because of what it might indicate. scared at the accumulated effect of my reduced activity level & reduced muscle mass. scared at my increased isolation, scared i'll lose my friends, scared i won't make new ones. scared i won't be able to survive on disability, scared about what i will do to make money when i can't sit for more than 15 or 20 minutes at a time & need to spend the better part of my day on my back. scared scared scared about what's going to happen to me.
bleh. anyone else relate?