Everytime I go to a doctor, I clam up and can't seem to express my true pain levels to them. It is so frustrating and I get so mad at myself afterwards. I plan. I write notes to myself. I take my wife with me. But no matter what I do, it seems that as soon as I get into that examination room, I lose my ability to express how much this pain has torn my life apart over the last 3 years.
Maybe part of it is that part of me still denies what has become of me. Maybe it is that I was raised to "tough it out" and not whine. Maybe it is my shame over not being about to deal with my own body. I just don't know.
Does anyone else have this problem? Better yet, has anyone with this problem come up with a solution? I have another appointment next week, and I really need to come up with some way to get over my pride or fear or whatever it is and help the doctor understand how I feel?