57. Used to be a top runner. Stopped running at 45. Then became a master gardener. Lost my mom who was my best friend about 16 months ago. My brother-in-law less than a year ago. Now, 5 grandchildren and I have to take serious drugs just to be able to be a good grandmother to them.
Today - 2nd caudal. Have had 3 previous esi's and a 3 level rfa (l4-L5). Usually a tolerate esi's pretty well but this one the doc had do "noodle around" to find the sweet spot (on florouscopy) to get the maximum spread. I'm in pain and feeling sorry for myself and tired of being so brave. There are times I want to give up. Today is one.
Thanks for letting me vent. I'm having a good cry as I type this. I feel like a 3 yr old child who just wants a hug.