Well, guess I might be trying some new meds.. Don’t want too, but my doc won’t give me enough of what I’m taking to work well. Makes me so mad. Went to Vegas/Nascar/Gambling/etc for the last 12 days and tho it was fun, all that walking just killed me. I’d wake up in the middle of the night with a pain level of 10+ on the rictor scale! I had to take my meds every 4 hours instead of 6 cuz I just couldn’t take it. One of the casino’s we camped our RV at also had a heated pool and hottub. I’ve never been in a hottub before, but thought it might help. I thought I would die the next day. Every joint and gasket hurt so bad I was in tears till my lortab kicked in. We moved to the Las Vegas Motorspeedway and camped there for 5 nights and I was bummed cuz I couldn’t get to any of the venue’s or practices because then I’d have to take extra meds. I just don’t know why they won’t give you what you need! Besides all that, they put my dad in the hospital while I was gone, and we are pretty sure he has some type of colon cancer. They haven’t given the complete diagnosis yet, but that is gonna be hard to deal with. Not hard cuz I like the guy, cuz I don’t. Hard because he is the most vile creature (besides my brother’s mother) that I’ve ever encountered. Never met anyone quite like either of them. Hard cuz me and little bro have to take him to the doctor, get their groceries, all this crap. What did they do for me as a kid? Well that would be tough cuz I don’t remember most of the first several years other than the old lady beating the hell out of me till I couldn’t breathe almost every day and him shooting every dog and horse I ever had and loved. Yeah, I’m pretty excited to be helping them out now in their old age… I can barely take care of myself. Oh well, enough of that. I’m real nervous about trying a different pain med. I know she wants to try morphine, but that has just never worked for me after surgeries, not a drop. They always have to switch me to lortab because I am just dying of pain on morphine. Wierd. I don’t know what to do about that… Guess I’ll find out on Thursday.