I try to be an upeat person normally, but lately this whole recovery from everything has just got me down. I have been having some pain in my temples and pressure on head and lately has caused a few incidents of blurring of eyes. Yesterday was one of the worst, my vision was doubleing. So I called the Dr that operated on my head. He wasnt there. Nurse called me back and said, he wasnt there but would call me back asap.
Yesterday came and went and now its past noon and no call. It is starting to freak me out, as the pain in temple is steady and pressure on head is constant. I know it is probably nothing severe, but it still is somewhat scarey. Especially the eye thing.
Yesterday was a tough one for me. I had this really empty feeling inside, but I didnt call anyone. I just feel that my friends probably get sick of me having problem after problem. I just couldnt think of anyone to cry to. Which made me feel even worse. I guess I just had to type this out. Let it out, cause I know that you all understand. I am so sick of it all, no job, no money, just Dr visits and pills.
I talked to Hubby last night and told him how empty I felt. I dont know, but with all thats going on or should I say wrong, maybe I need a up in my anti depression meds. I just hate to do that. If I have another fusion, and things get better, I will be better. Just hate the hollow feeling. And March in Iowa is so gray and grim and dirty. Dont help it either. Any happy thoughts? Love, Robin