Anyone have any thoughts, ideas, or suggestions on staying positive after a rough couple of days and nights?
I am one day shy of 8 weeks post TLIF w/instrumentation and decompression at L5-S1. Like everyone else, I've had days I've felt great and days I've felt horrible. At my one month follow-up I was told the xrays showed my top two screws appeared to have moved a tiny bit and bone had not grown as well there as on the bottom two. I was then given a brace, pain medication refills, and another month of restrictions for work and driving.
I actually felt a lot better after getting the brace and using it. I started walking more since I felt more comfortable walking with the brace, and my trusty friend, the cane. Also, the weather got nicer and that helped a lot since I could get outside to walk and see all the trees and flowers starting to wake up. I had a daily schedule ever since surgery and have been trying really hard to stick to it.
It seems that since last Thursday my pain has increased, even with cutting back the amount of time per walk and resting more. Nerve pain in my left butt, hip and leg has returned and by the end of each day, every muscle in my lower body hurts. Resting doesn't seem to help as I get up even more stiff and sore. Walking does help with that so I figure it's just my body telling me I do need to keep up my walking, even though it makes me ache afterwards. I haven't been able to lay in bed comfortably since surgery and have been in the recliner since I got home. Even that is becoming uncomfortable and I'm having trouble sleeping again.
I've been stressing about my back pain, which is completely different then before surgery. I know I had a big surgery and I'm not that far into recovery yet to be feeling 100% back to normal, if I ever will. I have a follow-up appointment this Thursday and am so worried I'll hear something I don't want to hear.
I think myself and my husband have been doing pretty well handling the emotional end of all of this but the past week it just seems that all the built up fears and stress has begun to spill out of both of us. I'm worried I'm not healing as fast as I should be and I'm terrified I won't be released to return to work, even part-time, and I only planned on being out a maximum of two months.
I know there are people who have had much worse problems after surgery and tell myself how lucky I am. It just hasn't helped lately.
What do you all do when you get in these funks and don't seem to be able to get out of them? I am taking Wellbutrin, this was to help me stop smoking, but it hasn't seemed to help as far as getting into blue moods.
Needed to vent to people who understand and have been or gone through the same thing. People who see me tell me how good I look and how well I'm doing. Urgh, I'd like to hit them sometimes!