Perhaps someone else has been through this so maybe I can get some help. I recently moved to another state and found a great neuologist. I was injured at work causing head, neck, lower back, shoulder and knee injuries. I had a cervical fusion March 08 which has now failed. I also had a complete rotator cuff tear repaired March 03 which is retorn after injury. I have been off work now since Nov 07 and luckily am receiving ssdi and ltd. Thank God! My legs are so weak and in so much pain walking is almost impossible. Ok I should get to the point, sorry for rambling. The dr I found in my new state is great and prescribed physical, occupational and speech therapy. (suffered paralysed rt vocal cord during cervical fusion) He also prescribed a nurse. All the above come to my house twice a week for therapy. Although in so much pain after their sessions I felt good that someone finally was doing something to help me perhaps have a quality of life. This lasted for 6 weeks and all but the speech therpist has discharged me. My family had such high expectations knowing when they saw me again I would be much improved. I woke up every day with a positive attitude that I could do this. I told myself "no pain, no gain." Well insurance companies do not contnue to cover therapy if there is no marked improvement. I can totally understand this but somehow feel like a total failure. After seeing the neurologist last week he ordered a motorized wheelchair as getting around my house is very difficult. Spend most of my time in recliner. He also did the test where he ran a very big safety pin up and down my legs and I felt nothing at all. When my husband and I got home he noticed the large scrapes and blood on my legs from the test. I had a bit of a meltdown I guess and just cried my eyes out for almost the first time since the injury. My husband is also disabled with a severe heart problem and I try so not to vent to him as I feel as though I am adding stress that he doesn't need.
I am sure many of you have gone through the therapy route and been discharged also. Did you ever go through the feelings of failure. Like you just can't seem to progress and you are letting not only yourself but everyone in your family down? I know acceptance is a key factor with our spinal cord issues and I don't think I am there yet. Maybe someone can share their stories with me.
Sorry for the long post.
Wishing everyone a day with less pain!