Hi everyone. I'm having a very difficult time emotionally . I'm having a flareup, and I'm getting to the point that I'm wondering if I will ever have my life back. My surgeon said it could take another year for my damaged nerves to heal and I don't know if he's just giving me a line of crap or if I really can still heal. Do any of you know if flareups can feel just as bad as ever if you are healing? I go through periods of needing less medicaiton, then flareups where I need more again. I'm just so discouraged and wonder if I can ever get my life back. We are planning on implanting a pain pump to make me feel better which I am also afraid of. The thought of another surgery makes me crazy . For one thing, I don't know the neurosurgeon who will be doing it, but I'm told he's excellent. I'm sick of being a recluse and sick of being sick. Can you just give me some hope or encouragement because I'm sobbing as I write this and I really need your help. Thank you.