I'm feeling as if I'll never get better. I had my first surgery in Jan of 09 after trying PM injections and PT with no relief. I've progressively gotten worse. I've been told I have nerve damage in my legs but had a clean emg today. I was a nurse, I haven't been able to work since Oct 2008. I homeschool my 3 boys. I'm on worker's comp and ssdi. I feel useless, worthless. I walk with a cane and if I don't I have falls. What is wrong with me?! I'm so upset and angry. I see a psychiatrist and my pm monthly. My journey has been far from easy. I'm currently 8 weeks postop from having my hardware removed by my second surgeon. He said the screws were huge. I lost faith in my first surgeon after he pulled my husband aside and told him he was a good man for putting up with me! I have a wonderful PM doc but my body doesn't seem to be able to handle anything stronger than Vicoden and it barely touches my pain, which is in my thoracic, lumbar and both my legs. I'm so afraid the doctors are going to give up on me or not believe me now that I've had a normal emg. My last emg was abnormal and I don't understand how this one was normal. I feel like I'm really losing it. I want to just pretend I'm better, but I know it wouldn't work. I'd end up falling and getting hurt. I just don't know where to go from here. This journey has been too long and painful. Thank you for 'listening', I wish I was more elequent.
1. L3-4 decompression laminectomy and foraminotomy
2. Left complete L3-4 discectomy with decompression of L4 root.
3. Posterior lumbar interbody fusion, L3-4 with 10-mm Capstone cage and autograph.
4. Posterior spinal fusion L3-L5 with iliac bone graph and BMP
5. Legacy instrumentation, L3 to L5
Spinal cord compression Thoracic spine