Now that 2010 is almost over, once again I’ve been reflecting a lot about Spine-Health - what it means to me and perhaps to some or all of you. Because it’s that time of year, I thought I’d take the time and try to express how I’m feeling, for what it‘s worth. I posted something similar last year, but my feeling haven't changed and I want to express this again, for those that are new and those that just want or need to think about this again.
Every person, at one point or another, finds something in their life that they can say has made a huge difference in how they feel, how they express themselves, and how they feel about others. I believe that Spine-Health is that for many of us. Because of this site, we’re able to sometimes lessen our pain or learn to deal with it better, we’re able to express more clearly what we need or feel because we know that what we say will be understood, and we’re able to realize what chronic pain does to us and in doing so, we can empathize with what it does to others.
There are always so many new members who’ve told us that this site has been a god-send for them, that because of the sincere caring, understanding, support and knowledge they’ve received from the Spine-Health forum members, they’re able to get through their spine problems, whatever they are, because we are here for them in every way we can be. Even being in our own world of pain, when we see a new member post who is as confused, scared and distressed as we can remember being when we first began our spine journey, or when an old member posts and needs help in some way, members never hesitate to jump in and share of themselves without question and with heartfelt advice and encouragement. Just how awesome is that?
I wonder what it would be like to be sitting here alone, feeling the ever-present CP beast trying to break down my door, and having nobody in my life that could possibly understand how difficult life sometimes is. I wonder what it would be like to be sitting here waiting for my meds to kick in, facing a day alone and having no one to call, no one to see, just no one at all that understands how scared and alone I feel sometimes, and how worried I am about my future. And there’s just no point in trying to explain it to someone who hasn’t been there because they simply can’t get it, no matter how hard they might try.
I have been lucky since my January surgery that my lumbar problems have improved greatly and I'm able to take daily morning walks with my little Wally, it's the highlight of each day. Many times we meet up with my 70-year-old friend with her dog Katie, Wally's girlfriend, and walk for hours. But on the other side, I need a job, have no decent income, am struggling financially and emotionally, have more cervical issues and the weight of all that is very heavy.
I know that for me, during the times when I’m having a busy day with my friends and family and I can feel the pain that’s going to sideline me coming on, the only two things I can think about is taking my meds and logging on to the Spine-Health forums. I know that I can make a post where I’m looking for suggestions or support and will get great responses from my Spine-Health family, but sometimes, even if I don’t feel like responding or posting at all, it makes me feel content and in some way complete to just visit here, to read other’s posts and responses, and seeing members helping members.
When you boil it all down, it really comes down to something very simple: Here on Spine-Health, we’re family. I doubt our friends and loved ones could understand the profound meaning of the friendships and strong bonds that are forged here. I’m proud to be a member of Spine-Health and I truly appreciate every member here and how you support one another without reservation and with true concern, affection and honesty.
Thank You, Happy Holidays and Cheers to all my fellow spineys. I’m hoping that you all come away with some wonderful memories from this holiday season and that 2011 finds you feeling better somewhere along the way.