Today is my first day at a new job. Can I do this, I sure hope so. I am not nervous about starting a new job, I am nervous if my pain levels are going to increase again. Being off work for 8 months kept my pain levels low or should I say alot better then when I was working. I felt human again. I pray this is not a mistake returning to work. What if I find out I cant do this? How long should I give it? I do realize at first my pain levels will increase due to just working again but like I said how long do I give it, to say I gave it a honest attempt. It could go either way. I could be fine or find out I just cannot do it which scares the crap out of me. To make things worse I woke up this morning with my back trying to go out. The physical I was given for pre-employment was very hard on me but I was honest about my medical history and medications I am taking. I was very surprised to discover that I passed the physical. I was unable to do some of the things that were requested of me. They even measured with a ruler the flexiblity of my neck. It was unlike any physical I have had previously. Well here I go out the door for my return to the work force. Wish me luck.