My name is Kimberly. I am 38 years old and the single mother to two little ones under 6. I got hurt at work in November. I was working as a charge RN on a locked adolescent psychiatric unit and broke up a fight between two patients. In the process I injured my back.
I was sent to their doctor and they did xrays and sent me to PT. My pain didn't improve so they referred me to a specialist who sent me for an MRI. At 7 weeks post injury I was told that I had a bilateral pars defect at L4/L5, spondylolysis and spondylolisthesis grade 1. I had my first epidural 4 weeks ago and it didn't do much, I had one days relief and my pain returned with each day after. At 10 weeks my specialist decided to do flexion xrays which showed severe spinal instability with progression to grade 2 spondy. He told me that day that I would need a fusion. This week he gave me my second epidural and it hasn't done much but take the edge off.
I have become "use" to my pain. At first it was debilitating but now it is just a part of my everyday life. I have radiculopathy to the right buttock, thigh and on a bad day down to the foot. I also have pins and needles in my right foot and sometimes my shin feels numb. In addition I have pain to the right of my spine with movement. When my pain levels decrease I become aware of the fact that my left side hurts as well and sometimes I get radicular symptoms there are well.
I see my specialist/surgeon again on Tuesday and likely he will want to schedule me for fusion. I am beyond scared and totally out of my comfort zone. Being a nurse is a hinderance for me at this point because my education and real life experience is making my mind think of all the things that can go wrong. My biggest fears at this point are not being able to take care of my children and live a normal life.
I'm scared and very unsure of what to do at this point. I would love to make some friends and share experiences and hopefully find some "buddies" to help me through this; and, hopefully I can help someone through what they are going through.
Have a blessed day