I guess after long consideration, "depression and coping" seems to fit the description of my issues. 18 months ago I had a tumor removed from T12 L1 level and also had bone spurs removed at L4 L5 level (previous lamenectomy at L4 L5). So two surgeries in one day. 7 days in ICU flat on my back. Two weeks home and spinal fluid was leaking, back into surgery (3rd in two weeks). Again, 7 days in ICU flat on my back.
My spasms (charlie horses) in my groin area prevented me from walking and lowering myself into a seated position without excruciating pain, this began as soon as I woke up from surgery.
Ok, I know this will take time to heal.....right? It has been 18 months and I still cannot walk to the bathroom or lower myself onto the toilet in the morning without excruciating spasms. Lying down relieves the spasms but as soon as I stand up they are back and last about 20 minutes.
NS says he sucessfully removed the tumor, his work is done. EMG shows no nerve impingement. PT says sit on ice and do exercises. Primary doc prescribes Baclofen and Cymbalta. No one explains why I'm still experiencing these spasms.
Do you ever get SO MAD that you think you are loosing your mind?!!! I'm beyond MAD, mad at the doctors, mad because they have no answers and sometimes make me feel like I'm actually imagining this stuff!! MAD that I cannot ride my horse, garden, sit in the bleechers at my sons track meets, etc. etc etc.
I really need to hear from someone who has been where I'm at,
Thank you for listening