Hi all, Names john (obviously).
So i have myself a dilemma here, not quite sure how to start this but, here goes:
I am twenty years old and have been into skateboarding for about 8 years now. Aside from throwing myself down countless sets of stairs and ramps, handrails, etc.. I was in a car accident about 5 years back. My mother and grandmother were with me in the car ( I was in the front passanger), front end collision on my side, car was totalled. My mom was treated for mild whiplash and grandmother had other serious anxiety issues resulting from. I never had myself checked out, thinking i was 15 and invincible. About a year ago, i started doing some tree work as a grounds man, not only did this consist of lifting huge logs and hurling them into a trailer, but also climbing ladders and dragging large loads of brush to the trailer, just to make it short. I took a few spills trying to prove my strength to the other guys. I had gotten involved in the heavy use of oxycodone. That lasted about 8 months, which i then quit the "blues" cold turkey (I know this is quite drawn out, but i'm trying to see if any of this might have anything to do with what i'm experiencing). Coupling this with moving from town to town with my mom as a single parent over 14 times, 3 months ago in the midst of one of these moves i fell off the back of a pickup going about 20 mph, straight onto my back, again under the influence of alchohol probably numbing the real injury.
So i decided after struggling with back pain while working out, skating and fishing, i went to the hospital. Upon first inspection of the x-ray, nothing. Sent me home with naprosen and flexiril. The pain, about a week later, became nearly intolerable, returning to the ER, they gave me a shot of hydrocortisone, percocet apap 7.5 and methocarbam 750 mg. It helped, but low and behold here i am 3 months later with severe pain.
I had an MRI of the T spine and L spine, both of which came back with no abnormalities. So 2300$ later (un-insured) and on my own i am at a crossroads. I'm so sick of self medicating, and my doctors (even the ER staff) just treat me like a junkie. I know that opiates are not a long term fix, they help the pain, but make me feel horrible if i don't have the money to pay for them, or can't get a hold of them etc... very very sick of this vicious cycle. I saw a spine specialist, him treating me the same way as the hospital, I don't know what to do.
The pain is in my mid-lower back above my L1 but right in that general area. I've gotten into the habbit of popping my neck and back, scared that trying to releive the pressure is creating more problems. I can't stay asleep through the night, waking up every 3-4 hours, sweating like crazy, restless and irritated the next morning. I've alternated ice and heat for the past couple of weeks, helps with muscle tension, but is back as soon as the ice melts or the heat fades. If I look straight down (bringing my chin to my chest) it severly hurts my neck. The back pain resonates from above my L1 internally. My muscles on either side of where the pain originates, get stiff and shoots up the left side of my back under my shoulder blade. It's becoming a struggle to even do minor chores and i don't want to become a slave to opiates and pain killers forever. (yardwork, Household cleaning, any bending over, or sitting in one position for prolonged periods of time).
I'm very tired of just being told that i'm making this up or that it's psychological. I know myself better than doctors or nurses and it truly hurts. Can anyone offer me any insight on what i might do??
Thanks guys, John.