Hello.I am a 28 year old female and suffering very badly with chronic pain due to my much too long to list,back problems, at least too long to list in this post : ) My story in short is... I have a very extensive list of back problems and i have done everything under the sun to get help for these issues.Ive had so many Doctors - Neurologist,Pain Management Doctors,Physical Therapists,Surgeons etc etc And unfortunately for me nothing they recommended or prescribed for the pain has ever helped.No matter how much i prayed or willed them to work they just wouldn't.Ive done so many courses of physical therapy,Ive done Viniyoga, 'a specific type of yoga for all areas of the spine', many courses of very painful spinal injections ,non narcotic pain meds,experimental meds and surgeries ,one emergency suregery.But the pain continued to win.It was only when i was given extended release Ms Contin and Oxycodone for breakthrough pain that i started getting some relief.Not completely pain free but it took the edge off.And i remember crying so hard and saying,Thank You God,Thank You.
So for many years ive been managing my pain with these medication while still doing everything i can do get better and improve my life. But suddenly my Pain Management Dr. has left.And i cant find help from any where.He had a private practice so he doesn't have another Dr. like some do,to take his patient load.I was told to go to my Family Dr. and ask for them to write my prescriptions until i find a new Dr. But my Family Dr.said flat out NO.I know enough to know you cant just suddenly stop these medications without bad things happening.And im very scared.Ive been searching for a new Dr. with no luck.
Now i genuinely do need this pain medication for pain and to have any sort of quality of life.I do realise that even though i am not addicted that after many years of this medication my body is dependent and needs to be weened off safely. And ive called around so many people and i cant even at the very least get a Dr. to get me off the medication safely.I feel very scared,very sad and so very much alone.
Ive been trying to think and think what can i do to safely get off the medication till i find a Dr.I know a lot of you are hurting and scared just like me and ive run out of any one to ask.Does any one here have any ideas?
I was even thinking that i have a very serious heart disease and in the past im so ashamed to admit this but i feel i must so in the past i was suicidal.Not in a cry for help way either,a real way.And i am in such fear that sudden withdrawal will kill me in one way or another.Please don't judge me badly for admit that last thing please.
Any replies i would appreciate so much.Thank you : )