I haven't wrote on this group in about a week or two because I was not hurting. Well now I'm in so much damn "excuse my language if it offends anybody" pain that I had to take two tramadols and three muscle relaxers today to ease the pain a little. I had to work today which in my station there is 10 men I take care of and most of them have the flu so that put extra strain on my back. Going tommrow to put in job applications I can't do this type of work anymore. Not trying to sound all down and depressed but sometimes I feel like throwing in the towl and and giving up without giving a flying flipper. I hate that my family answer for me mainly my fiancee to his friends and family when they ask how my back is doing he always answers oh she's doing alot better or the pain is gone since I did t...his and that today. I might look good on the outside but secretly dieing on the inside waiting for my exit strategy. I don't know how some of ya'll can deal with this pain which is alot worse then mine, but I would love to find out. I tried excersing,eating healthy, and medication. Nothing seems to help when I get to this point of pain. My fiancee is 35yrs older than me and in heck of better shape than I am hell one of my residents won't let me help him unless I have someone to help me because he sees the pain in my face when I get him ready. No 22yrs old or anybody else in that matter should suffer this badly and for doctors to just say it's a strain that's BS to me. I now have pain that shoots through my legs I've complained to doctors oh that just a side effect it will go away. Will they know what's wrong with me when I reach 50 or 60 since they shrug it off like it's nothing. I know I've written awhile didn't plan to make it this long but If u took the time to read it I appreciate it alot
I'm gonna stop now pain is getting to me.