I'm so frustrated right now.
Ever since I started swimming again my pain is has been worse, not surprisingly. The doctor told me she wanted me to be active. In that I can't run, swimming is really the only thing I can do. My pain has not really been diagnosed. I've had almost every test in the book, with no results.
The pain has been bad- really bad. All my doctor will do is prescribe me muscle relaxers which pretty much soley works on the concept of sedation. I can't be comatose if I have 6 hours of school every day and two 5 hr internships every week. I can't take it before I go to bed and no be able to wake up the next morning. Even if I take the meds repeatedly for a week its like I still don't get used to them. They don't relieve my pain and just make me super tired, so what's the point of taking them.
I'm 21 years old and have been in pain for almost exactly 6 years. In these 6 years, even with treatment, my pain level has not been improved. I'm in so much pain I was in so much pain after sitting just 30min that I was literally sweating in an air-conditioned room and my teacher (who knows nothing of my condition) asked if I was ok because I looked "peaked".
Everytime I call the doctor (about every 2 weeks at this point, I like to give every medication a chance) she takes 2 days to get back to me. This is already my 3rd back doctor.
Today is a day where I just want to give up. I'm done. I don't know what that means, but I've reached my boiling point. I just feel like there is no one and nothing that can help me.