I am a mother of 4 children.
Before completely rupturing my disc I was very active. Worked out (almost every day).
I feel like my life changed in an instant when I was doing the same thing I do everyday. No accident, nothing. Not that that matters. I have ok days and then I have days like today. I am so angry that this has happened. I am really pissed off at myself thinking I should have done something differently so I wasnt injured.
I feel like my life as I know it is over,like even after surgery and even after I fuse I will have to be careful,so as not to have a fall or do anything too strenuous so I dont F'ING paralyse myself! ( I used to play golf and soccer)
I feel like I had so much going for me and now I am trapped in this new reality! I am sad for my family too. I feel like a burden,and obviously after surgery I will burden them more.
I am also scared of the surgery itself but that goes without saying.
Thats it, just needed to get it out. Figured someone on here might have some idea of what Im going through emotionally. Just a bad day.
Thanks for listening.
Missy, 1 level ACDF C6/C7 Monday July 16th 2012.