I feel awful. Today is my 10 year old sons field day at school. He was practically begging me to go, so I told him I'd ask the teacher what it involves and see if there is anything I can do. There is just NO way.... It is all very physical, and they have chairs out, but they are the metal folding chairs that are uncomfortable for someone that doesn't have back problems, let alone someone who does. These are the days that make me HATE my spine!!! Yes, I know it sounds stupid to resent my own spine, but at this moment I do. I just really hate that I even have to worry about stuff like this. I used to be very active before all of this spine crap. I coached, ran, did 150 crunches a day, lifted weights, etc. I was in the best shape ever! Now, I have gained 30 pounds and at times can do some walking, but even that can put me into horrible pain if I even overdo it a little.
I miss the days of just "doing" and not having to think twice about everything I do. Usually I will just do things and pay for it later, but these last few months have been worse than normal and I am afraid to aggrevate anything.
I am so ready to see the neuro to find out what in the heck is going on and what can be done!
I know most of my posts have been a lot of venting/whining lately, but I am thankful I have the SH family that understands and listens. I don't know what I would do without yall!