So about 7 months ago, I was in college studying to become a Licensed Practical Nurse. I had never had back pain in my life, I'm young only 20 years old, and all of a sudden I started having pain in my leg. It wasn't bad, and the only time I had pain was if I was standing up, like standing still for more then a minute, the pain would start. But the pain wasn't bad, it was more of an inconvenience then anything. I graduated, got a fulltime job, and never went to the Doctor, I'm so upset with my self that I didn't go all those months ago but I was stubborn, I though it would just go away, besides even working the 12 hour shifts, made my leg feel better if anything, because walking seemed to help it. The 2 months ago, I went on a long walking trail, and the next day I woke up with extreme pain. Luckily I had 4 days off, I rested, but instead of getting better the pain got worse. I called in sick went to the ER and was told I had a pulled muscle and to exercise it, this made the pain even worse. Now as a nurse I had been researching my pain and figured it was Sciatica, so after having to call in sick for the next couple days I went to my family doctor, she said I had sciatica and sent me to physio. I was off 2 weeks, then tried to go back to work, that was 12 hours of hell, and after that one day of work it was 10x worse then what it had been at first.
So now I have been off work for 2 months, I had an MRI and its showing that I have a herniated disc at L5 S1, my doctor said by the way its pinching my nerve I'm lucky the pains not in both my legs. I don't consider myself lucky in the least. I feel soo depressed. All I do most of the day is lay on the couch, my doctor says I should try and do more activity and work through the pain. She has me on lyrica 150mg twice a day, its doing nothing, I asked her twice for different pain medication and each time she just increases the lyrica. I can't function like this. I haven't been sleeping at night, maybe 3 hours maximum because as soon as I wake up I"m in too much pain to fall back asleep or stay lying down for that matter. Going in the car is horrible, I bawl my eyes out everytime I'm in the car. I have to sit down to get dressed, going in the shower is torture. I have to rush through meals because I can't sit at the table for very long. The pain is sometimes so bad I just wish someone would cut my leg off, physio is helping, and I try to go for 20mins walks at night, but its kinda embarassing because I usually bawl my eyes out during the walks. I worry about my job because I only just got hired like a month before going off work.
I am soo stressed cause I don't have an income, yet I have to pay for 20$ for every physio session, I have 150$ monthly payments for my studdent loan interest and insurance. I have to pay 100$ for my health benefits, and this month I need to renew my LPN license which is like 240$. Also the springs in my mattress are sticking out, so I need a new mattress. The pain from the sciatica is bad enough but to have to worry about all this, I don't know what to do. I don't know what I would do if it wasn't for my dog Rex, I take hom for the walks with me, and he basically just pulls me along. I worked so hard at school and college and then to be hired full time right off the bat, now I feel like my life is over.
''He is your friend, your partner, your defender, your dog. You are his life,his love, his leader. He will be yours, faithful and true, to the last beat of his heart. You owe it to him to be worthy of such devotion.''