I am only 24 and haven't even been in this situation for 2 years in December...trying to find the hope in things but it's so difficult sometimes.
Guess I still have it better than some. No surgeries (yet at least, not even much of a diagnosis as far as I'm concerned), I still work a full-time job (has been in jeopardy a time or two from missing so much work), I can still drive/travel (when I have the motivation/energy)...
but I miss what life used to be.
( I miss playing basketball for hours upon hours. I was invited to play at a few different colleges just a few years ago, and I can still spin a basketball on my finger, quite well too. What I miss is being able to do the things that young people are supposed to do. I'm not supposed to feel like this...it just isn't fair. What did I do to deserve this???
It brings me to the brink of tears often and I can't help but think/feel that my life is over
and I can't help but think that if I could just go back and make a few different decisions in my life...
I know that I am not "supposed to" feel this way. I just feel like a total failure, worthless