Hi - I am also awaiting my spinal cord stimulator trial. I am suffering from Failed Back Surgery Syndrome since '06 and use a walker most of the time. I am 38 married with two young boys. Do any of you parents struggle guilt? I feel like my back issues have robbed them of the mother I wanted to be. I have been vey thankful for all the infomation all have you have posted. I too have followed Kathy and Danimal reading each entry with the excitment teenagers (ok, and myself) devour the next twilight saga. I can read the statistics which read that the pain relief average is 35% and that 75% of all people if they had the choice, would implant the stimulator again. I have some very specific questions, do you have the paddle? How different was your trial to what you actually experience? How long time passed between your trial removal and the implantation of the device? If any of you are still working out outside the home, when were you able to return to work? How long were you in the hospital when the device was implanted? Did you wait to turn on your device after it was implanted, and if so howlong. How many times have you gone in to have different programs found/run? I do have some nerve damage in my around lower back and top of butt (I think from the last of five radiofreuency ablations). Thanks for taking the time to read this and I wait for any infomation you'll share with me.