Hi everyone...sorry this is so long!.
For years I have experienced all this weird stuff that happens to me only at night. It can happen just as I'm falling asleep, while I'm asleep, while I'm trying to fall back to sleep or at any other time during the night.
For example, the other night I got up to relieve myself in the middle of the night and then crawled back into bed. I was feeling relaxed and comfortable and had just started to drift off to sleep when I began seeing this very bright kaleidoscope of lights in my eyes/brain which kind of scared me. There was also sort of a low-pitch vibrating hum. This lasted about 3 minutes and then went away. While this was going on I opened my eyes a few times to see if I was just dreaming (I wasn't). Finally, it stopped. I went to sleep and woke up feeling fine.
There have also been times when I would have "sleep-starts" (where you hear a loud "BANG!" in your head and see a brilliant flash of light) or I'd wake up and have this faint echoing noise in my head. One time I saw disco lights in my sleep (don't know if I was dreaming or something else but I'm pretty sure I was asleep at the time). Another time, I was semi-awake in the middle of the night and in my eyes/brain I could see this light that got brighter and brighter until it became unbelievably bright and changed colors to kind of an orange plasma. Then, it suddenly went away. I sometimes wake up and can feel/hear/sense a low-pitch "drumming" noise in my ears. One evening I was playing the guitar and then went to sleep and just as I was about to nod off, I suddenly heard a guitar string being plucked. Since sound is distorted during sleep it could have been my cell phone going off but still, it freaked me out a little bit. I've had other wierd things happen at night too. I can't remember all of them but they have been going on for years.
I have been under a great deal of stress for over a year with several of those stressors being major ones. I've been diagnosed with GAD, OCD, Panic Disorder, Bi-Polar Disorder, Tourettes (to name just a few). Tons of specialists, tests and different meds over the years. One issue that I probably find the most frightening are the GAD symptoms which include excessive worrying, the constant "what ifs", blowing everything out of proportion so that even the slightest things become huge worries to be constant obsessed over, over-analyzing, thinking the worst about everything, a constant sense of fear/dread, severe stress-intolerance, etc.
One issue that seems to come and go which I find particularly disturbing are the very intense dreams I have which seem to come in waves and always seem to revolve around hiding, escaping, sorting, complex and unsolvable tasks, impossible problem solving, repetitive searching/seeking, catch-22 events, losing things, etc. Then, I wake up the next morning completely exhausted and usually feel really run-down, anxious, lousy and dazed (out of it) for the rest of the day. Sometimes I even wake up feeling confused and disoriented, have trouble finding/remembering words and feel really spaced out and like my brain was deprived of oxygen during the night. I also suffer from tons of head/sinus pressure and brain fog. Then, toward the evening and late at night, I'll feel great again but then I go to sleep and the whole process repeats itself.
I have always slept through these strange (and very stressful) dreams so I have never known what was actually happening during them but one night (I'm guessing at about 5:00AM) I had just started to have one of these terrible dreams and had barely gotten into it when my pet bird began screeching loudly and woke me up. After I got him calmed down, I noticed that I was in the midst of a full-blown panic/anxiety attack. So perhaps the dreams are being caused by a combination of stress and nocturnal panic attacks?. I know the bird's screeching didn't have anything to do with it because that has happened many times and it's not a big deal for me at all.
The strange thing is that a whole bunch of stressors in my life have recently been resolved (of course new ones always seem to pop up and replace them) and I was very happy and relieved about that so shouldn't I be having LESS anxiety/panic attacks/sleep/dream issues?.
I am on Keppra, Depakote, Rispiradone, Atenolol, Ativan and Prevacid but I have had all this weird stuff long before I was on any of these meds. Last night I went to bed and felt happy and really relaxed but just as I was drifting off to sleep it felt like my eyes were suddenly drifting off to the left. I do have Tourettes but an EEG/MRI by the Neuro came back negative (no seizure disorder, etc) although I have had bouts of vertigo in the past and suffer from chronic sinusitis and allergic rhinitis. I also have cervical arthritis w/ bone spur at C4/C5 and since these symptoms occur during the night (and leave me feeling "stunned" during the day) I'm wondering if I'm pinching a nerve or blood vessel because of the way I'm laying or something. I do know that soemtimes I get a pain in the back of my head/neck which is worse when I first wake up.
Does anyone else here have weird nights like this?. I'm seeing a Neuro and my regular Doctor at the moment and plan to share this with them but I was wondering if anywhere here might be able to provide some insight in this or just share your own experiences. It's no fun feeling all alone )-: