Been fighting pain since I was 15 and now have a pump in me for diladid straight to the back. I have lower and upper back problems. It is the upper that is getting the best of me. I twisted my back just right and been fighting sever pain for a week now. I am mentally loosing it now. So tired of this. Want to go to ER but they really haven't helped me in the past. My pain managment is a three hour drive one way away. Down to six vicodins and not sure going to get more tomorrow. so post to see shrink in morning about my deppression meds. Scared of even being able to make it to it tomorrow. I am hurting really bad Don't know what to do. Feels like I am all alone. Well I basically am here. all alone.
My daily goal is to survive the pain