Having a rough day cant seem to keep my mind from thinking about what it was like to be pain free and to be able to do what I wanted when I wanted to do it, I just feel like a shadow of myself.
I ll give you a little back ground on myself, I had an accident at work which lead to horrible back pain and even worse leg pain down my left side,I was given a MRI in which I was told I had herniating l4 l5 which put me on the road to a half dozen epidurals and then later on a discectomy, but the pain never changed or got any better...
The last few days I have made some calls to a mental health social worker, has anyone tried talking to someone?
I just feel really depressed lately, thinking back on how much this constant pain has changed my life, I just feel like it has taken away all the things that I loved to do and has left me stranded inside not wanting to do anything I used to do.
I feel forgotten by everyone I know and feel judged by anyone, I feel like this condition has taken over my life completely I need to know that there is gonna be a up side to this thing everything thus far has been negative, I just wish there was a switch I could flip and take a break from all this, its exhausting.
I guess there has to be a point where you except who you are now and try to move on with a life with constant pain it just seems like the most difficult thing I have ever had to do, I loved my life before all this happened. This non-living thing that I have going on I absolutly hate it.
I welcome any advice from someone in the same situation, Im thankful for finding this site it does feel better to be able to speak to someone and not be judged, thank-you all
I hope this gets easier someday....