as some of you know, i teach high school students. i have students who are in wheel chairs, who have diseases, who have seizures, who are on meds and so forth. i home schooled a student who went blind due to diabetis. i went over to her house and worked with her 3 times a week. i gave her books on tape and read to her. her biggest wish was to walk across the stage at graduation which she did with help but she did it. i have a girl with cerebral palsey who plans on walking across the stage when she graduates. she will use a walker but she will walk. these students and teachers, one who had cancer, managed to go to school, graduate, and work. they did not complain about their issues. they put forth a determination to get on with their lives and to work towards goals which they did. i manage to get to work, drive, and teach with chronic pain issues. there is absolutely no support from the administration or some fellow teachers. they feel that if you have chronic pain issues and are disabled, then you should retire. this is why i have issues with people who don't do anything. one of the things that i found that keeps me grounded is keeping busy, working. i could have gone on disability if i wanted to and some wanted me to but i did not want to go that route. it is a struggle getting out of bed, getting dressed, with my wife's help, driving to work and sometimes having to get out of the car because the pain is too great. i have to walk around the campus which is also a struggle but i still work, why? not to say i am tougher than some of you but i find that keeping busy and working gives me a sense of self respect and helps me cope with my pain. i go home and collapse on the couch but i keep busy. i know some of you will say but i can't work, my dr won't let me, or the pain is too great. well i look at my students and some of the teachers who are dealing with cancer and other health issues and it is hard for me to feel sorry for myself. one of the best ways of dealing with pain is ignoring it. i treat it like an uncle who is a jerk but i put him in the back of my mind and not let it rule my life. the pain is there but i keep it unrecognized.
I have 4 fusions from L5-3, the latest last May '12 where they fixed my disc that broke.They went through my side this time. I take 40 mg of oxycontin 4x a day and 4 fenatyl lollipops 300 micro gms 4x a day.