I've had low back pain for the last 3-4 years or so, but i've still been functional. In the last 3 months it's started traveling down my leg to my ankle. I've had an MRI done and i have a disc blown out at L3/L4, slight bulge at L4/L5 and slightly bigger bulge at L5/S1 (http://i.imgur.com/OQrd597.jpg
). My family doctor has sent me for a referral to a surgeon. Where i am in Canada it's about a 8-12 month wait to see the surgeon for a consult.
based on everything I've read i'm sure he's going to hold off on surgery.. i'm not even sure i want surgery. I've read a lot and understand the risks at getting this done at my age (34/male).
I feel as though i have no future.. that it's only going to go downhill from here. I dont enjoy the fact i'm in a relationship as i feel i'm going to drag the rest of her life through the mud as well.. I've tried reading through these forums but i tend to stay away.. it's so depressing. All i seem to read are horror stories. I don't want to live the rest of my life in pain.. and to be honest i don't plan to. I've never had an accident, i dont know how this happened.. pure bad luck and genetics is all I can think of.
To this day i've never taken a narcotic... i'm terrified of them. I do find pot helps a little and then advil / tylenol type solutions. In the last 8 months i had joined a Crossfit outfit, and i love it there so much. The people are so great, and i've made a ton of great friends there... it hurts so bad that i may soon have to quit.
i dont even have a question.. i'm just venting. I know you people will understand.