Hello. I am brand new to the forum and I could really use some help.
I am 50 years old. About 30 years ago, I woke up and found I couldn't sit up from bed, somehow my hips got out of alignment. No clue what had happened. I struggled on and off with lower back pain ever since. I would take medication until my back was better and then I would be fine until the next episode. I never had an issue with addiction.
About 6-7 years ago my back had gotten so bad I had to give up all my favorite activities and became really depressed. In addition to degenerative discs I was told I had arthritis in my lower back. I went through a pain management clinic and after trying several different medications, was put on Fentanyl. After finding the correct dosage (75 mcg), I loved that I did not wake up every morning with back pain. I was able to take up golf and felt like I could manage life again. I was also given Norco’s for breakthrough pain. This past January, I went to pick up my monthly patch and found that they were now going to cost me $350 a month due to a change in the insurance.
My husband has always hated that I took any medication and he really hated the Fentanyl and Norco’s but he tolerated it. I didn't tell him how much of the Norco’s I took because I knew it would lead to an argument and honestly, it was my choice. I was trying to quit Fentanyl cold turkey but the withdrawals were way too much for me to handle. I am now just taking Norco’s.
My husband has now given me an ultimatum – either I quit pain medications or he will divorce me. He is convinced that I will die from liver disease and he doesn't want to stand by and watch. He doesn't even like taking aspirin.
I can see where he is coming from but I hate getting an ultimatum. Even if I got off the pain meds, I am always going to have back pain so why go thru all the withdrawals?
Not sure if anyone else has been through something similar. I could really get some advice/input.