Hi everyone.. Please Help, Need advice!
I am hoping that someone on here can help me, give me some understanding about the position I am in from the news I received today in regards to my pain management program. I have been in pain management for over a year now for my herniated cervical discs. My C3-4 is slightly herniated and my C6-7 is extremely herniated. My C6-7 is so herniated that up until last month I was not even allowed to walk down the street. If I fell, got bumped had any type of accident that I could be paralyzed or worse. I have been basically afraid to live my life. I had a second MRI done and because of my lack of activity my body is starting to heal naturally on it's own and thankfully the herniation has shifted directions and is no longer on my spinal cord. It is now going towards my esophagus. I know that sounds awful still but I am just thankful that it is off my spinal cord. I was scheduled for spinal surgery for OCT 27 but because of this recent MRI I had the option to do the wait and see method. I am thinking to just wait on everything until after the holidays. Maybe my body will keep healing to the point where I would not need a plate and two screws put in my neck. Along with my herniation(s), I also have a partial tear in my L shoulder and a snapping scapula, also on the left. Right now I live my life through pain management. In which I am building a tolerance too. I take 4 10/325 percocet daily, 10mg flexirol, PRN and 100 mg Norfelx PRN and apply Lidoderm patches, 12hrs on/12hrs off. I recently switched drs because my dr moved out of state. My first appt with my new PM was last week. She did a urine of course and gave me my scripts, offered to increase me to an Oxycotin or morphine, I declinded, I do not want that stuff, I would rather just stay with my percocet. I do not want the pills to live my life, I want to live my life on the pills. I hate the fact I need these pills to get through my day. I'm sure all of you can sympathize with me. At any rate, today my urinalysis came back and there was BUP in it. The nurse was very short with me and said that at this time my dr is not going to prescribe me any more meds. I had no argument here because I had no idea what she was even talking about. I just said that I never have heard or took it before and offered to come in immediately for another test. I have nothing to hide. She said that would not be necessary and I could talk to my PM dr next moth at my appt. She will still treat me but not on Narcos. I have no idea what she even means by that.. can they do that? Just let me be in pain? No weaning so I will be sick because of physical dependence? Not even let me prove myself with a second test? I will test every day if I have to.. I was very forthcoming at my first appt. I even told them I took a valium that week, in which I was prescribed a year or so ago. So again, I have never heard of BUP, so I looked it up. BUP is short for buprenorphine, the active ingredient in Suboxone.. didn't know what that was either. I'm still so shocked and devastated. If I lose my PM how am I going to live my life? So, after doing my research, now knowing that it is an opiate blocker for people with addiction why on earth would they think I would take that? 1) I was scheduled for surgery.. block pain killers? 2) I tested positive for percocet, why would I take that at the same time?? 3) why wouldn't I have just told them I took it because i wasn't under contract with them like the Valium? I am going to call them tomorrow and hopefully I can speak with my DR and not her rude nurse. I'm not a drug addict, Has anyone else ever heard or experienced someone testing positive for BUP from taking something else? Any false positives? Is this test going to be on my permanent file for other drs to see? Such as my orthopedic, neurosurgeon? I have filed a workman's comp claim, will they be able to see this? I am so unbelievably mortified. ANY info, advice, comments, thoughts,etc.etc. would be so appreciated. Please and thank you..