Hello, fellow spine sufferers. It's been awhile since I have been here, I hope that everyone is doing as well as can be expected with the different issues that life finds it necessary to throw our way. The latter half of 2014 was a rough one. Anyway, on to my topic of choice at the moment......
Growing up, I LOVED the cold and snowy winter months, mostly because it meant school would be called off, sometimes we would miss weeks at a time. Even though it meant that we would have to go, sometimes way up into the month of June!! Even after becoming and adult, I never outgrew my love for the winter months. Having my own family, only made me love it more-something magical (to me) about being snowed in with my family. Being able to staying in our pajamas all day, knowing no one was going knock at the door, a tasty pot of homemade stew on the stove, a nice roaring fire in the fireplace creating a homey and cozy feeling, going sledding followed by a hot cup of hot chocolate w/marshmallows...I loved everything that winter had to offer, BUT.....back then I did not suffer with chronic pain!!
Fast forward to now....Some days, I stay in my pj's because they are more comfortable than jeans or slacks touching my spine, hips or legs, now I do not care if someone knocks at the door and sees me in them at 2 in the afternoon. I make stew now, not because it helps to create a warm, homey & cozy feeling, but because it can be frozen or re-heated for a couple of days and I don't have to cook everyday. Gas heat has replaced the roaring fireplace. Forget the fun of sledding on fresh snow with a skim of ice on top, that would just cause more damage. Even the simple task of making hot chocolate, at times, takes more effort that I care to put forward...I'm not lazy by any means, I have chronic pain and its winter. My bones hurt more, the cold air does not lubricate my joints like the warm sunshine of spring and summer does.
Come on Spring.....I want to feel your warm sunshine on my body, I'm tired of the achiness and the extra pain that winter brings. I want to wake up with and "extra spring in my step" knowing its gonna be 70 for the day, I want to open my windows and smell the warm fresh air, I want to smell fresh cut grass again. I want the anticipation of seeing the seasons first watermelons in the grocery store. I want to take a walk in a new spring outfit that does not include my boots, gloves, scarf and my coat. As, I get older I'm seeing more and more that not only does my body and pain levels improve when its warm out but so does my psyche. I want spring now!!
I will get back under my throw now, finish my cup of coffee, may even take a nap hoping that when I wake up it will be spring and 70 degrees--that just can't be too much to ask for, can it??