I have been a member of this board for over three years but not very active lately. You can look at my intro if you are interested in my history.
I had a failed Microdiscectomy in early 2012 and just had one level AILF spinal fusion (L5/S1) in late November of 2014. The jury is still out on whether the fusion will help me. I am currently in post surgical PT with an excellent group and am following through at home.
I have been on opioid pain meds for 3 & 1/2 years, and like many of us, have gained a high level of tolerance. I very much want to get off these meds to see if I can cope without them and am being advised by my PT team to do so.
Here is one of my problems. I worked with a pain management doctor from mid 2013 to early 2014 (who was with the "top" ortho hospital in the country.) We both agreed to try and get me off of opioids but he put me through tremendous physical pain and humiliation. (He made statements that made me feel like a failure when I couldn't meet his goals of draw-down due to pain and only pain. I was in a constant state of anxiety and fear with him. I got down to a very low level of medication and was in horrible, daily pain and did not get completely off meds. I don't want to sound like a wimp, but that experience was pretty traumatic and has left me feeling not "up to the task".
I went back to my prior PM doctor last year who has a more moderate approach and went back on pain meds so I could function enough to search for a new surgeon that led to this recent fusion.
Can anyone out there advise me on how they withdrew successfully? There seems to be a ton of help for recreational users but none for us innocent pain patients.
Any advice or positive stories would be welcome.