I have been feeling stuck and I do not know how to help myself. I am currently on the cancelation list for my double cervical fusion and this not knowing when the surgery is is killing me. The surgeon wanted me on the list to get me in sooner but they can not tell me when the surgery will be. The only thing they could tell me was to stay in town, alway have my phone on and just be ready. They said it would be before summer but when is "before summer" for the hospital? It has taken me two years to get to the surgery point and I am just so ready to get on with recovery. I am 28 years old and for the last 8 months my quality of life has not been good. I was so active before the two discs in my neck herniated and then degenerated and now i am not able to do anything. The only thing I can do is walk slowly on the treadmill. This warmer weather has made me so depressed because I just want to get outside and be active. I know I have a long road ahead of me with recovery, but I don't now how to not feel depressed for myself. Everyone in my life besides my husband and I are planning their summer trips, making plans and moving on with their lives.
If anyone has been in this situation or can shed some light it would be greatly appreciated. I just want to feel normal again and this not know and living on edge is really getting to me.