Chronic pain causes your body to change in ways that you never, in your wildest dreams, thought would happen to you. Perhaps, like me, you were a runner and a fitness freak. Perhaps you were an everyday “joe” who just enjoyed life and had a family, friends or all. Maybe you were a loner but just supposed that you might not be alone one day. Then suddenly you wake up one morning and POOF, You are in severe pain. You go to the docs. They tell you what to do. They tell you that you must have surgery or you will never walk again. These are not bad guys, they are trained to “tell it like it is.” So the next thing is that you wake up from surgery and the Chronic pain is not just debilitating . It is isolating. Suddenly you have this thing going nurses are scrambling to give you more pints of blood. Things “didn’t go well and you had a huge tumor” that we didn’t think of. Or we thought a 4 level fusion would help but damn, “sucks to be you.”
So fast forward to 6 or 7 years and you discover that your lower back (after a spinal cord stimulator) isn’t really the problem .It’s the drunk who hit your car when you were sitting “shotgun” and you suffered a severe whiplash when you were 15. Now you wake up after fighting pain and (PS. Stopped taking all narcotics just to be taken seriously – 2 months of withdawals.)” and here I am. I am losing my voice and have trouble with my hands. Osteophytes. Damn.
None of this really matters except I know that I can’t really discuss this with my family or friends, most of which aren’t around anymore because I can’t “do” anything with them. Since I stopped taking “pain meds” I have to be very careful not to be too active or else I will have to rely on “narcotics – bad addict, bad addict!”
So back to my original premise…… . But we are still together and that is all that matters. Hang in there and keep sharing. We will all get through this together. K