Hello, I had ALIF surgery S-1, L-5. Just over a month ago. I am 35years old. I am feeling very negative and not happy about that. under a lot of stress,trying to be positive. I am married,with 3 children,not babies ...my husband is out of work,everyone is stressed,my kids see it and are being affected,nothing I can do at the moment. Just trying not to loose it or break down crying. I need to be in prayer,so much in my mind even that seems hard...i do not feel like myself...my kids go back to school next month,so much to be done....this is hard.