Sometimes you just want to put it out there. You're not looking for sympathy and you know that there are no easy answers - you just have to endure it until you get through it.
I've tried telling my nearest and dearest but that doesn't help - it just makes him worry more and he gets frustrated because he can't take the pain away. I don't want to burden family and friends, they will all stop for a moment and offer sympathy and advice ... have you tried this or that, or, if you follow the advice in this or that book you will never be in pain again and then they will move on - they have their own trials to deal with. I even tried just "putting it out there" once via my private account on Facebook - I got comments such as "What is it now?" - so all that did was make me feel like a winger ...
So ... what is it now?
Nothing really - I'm just a little frustrated and definitely over it!
Why? Because I have been stuck in a breakthrough for two days and I just can't get on top of it. At the limit on breakthrough meds. Even the slightest twisting movement is causing me to cry out. Major difficulty with walking, sitting or laying down so lots of alternative pain free things do do - NOT:(. Haven't been this bad since the early days of recovery after surgery and last surgery was in 2013!
Have spent the night trying to figure out how to turn over without crying out - not much success. Now I am focussing my effort on figuring out how to get out of bed. Do I need an ambulance? Maybe ... Am I going to call for one? Probably not ...
When will it end? What do I do? How do I make it stop? All good questions but none of them need to be answered. It will end when it ends.
Thank you Universe for letting me just "put it out there".
I just need to scream at the universe for a moment or two