I know I want to say something but I am really having trouble putting my thoughts into words. I've had back problems for over a decade and it has made my marriage difficult at times. Last year, after a very nice respite of several years, my back gave up again and my fusion disintegrated. Since then it has been a constant struggle and has impacted my marriage. So, after 13 years together and raising 4 wonderful children, it's over. My husband is done.
So here I am, unable to work, just approved for long term disability but we all know that's not a lot of money and I'm not sure how I feel. Next month I am moving in with my daughter and my son-in-law. I am so lucky that they are there for me and I can't complain about the location because they live in Hawaii. But at the same time, while I am so very glad to be able to go stay with them, I can't believe that he is willing to throw away all these years.
Here's to starting over and getting the priviledge of doing it from the sunny beaches of Oahu. What better place to try to get back on my feet! In a short 5 weeks, my entire life will have changed. I guess it's time for a new era and a new road. I hope I can do this.