I am not sure if I am the lone ranger on this...
For the past year and a half since surgery i have had one battle after the other.
I have been in and out of the hospital...unable to work for more than a couple hours a day...and I have missed all activities for my kids.
My husband packed up last night and took our boys camping for a 3 day weekend. I am stuck home once again. I can't go because I have started a new medication for yet another chronic infection that has set in. He was hesitant on even going, but I made him go. I am tired of my childrens constant worry on my behalf. I try to mask my true pain and act fine, but my youngest looks me dead in the eyes and says..."mom--you say you are ok but your eyes don't" WOW that is coming from a 10 year old. I feel like a failure...the constant going in and out of the Doc office is begining to ware me down!!!
I don't know why my body is so sick...even the docs call me the one in a million...i go week to week and day to day not knowing if i am actually gonna make it through.
I just want this to go away...i want to wake up and feel normal(or whatever normal may be).
Has anyone else stuggled with low immunities after surgery...I am begining to wonder if I will ever get well. Just really wearing on my last nerve!!