Hi. My name is Nichole. I have chronic pain. I'm am 37 years old and have been in pain since I was 23. I am joining this forum to meet new people who understand what I live with everyday and to also hopefully give back in some way. Make an online group of friends , since I don't get out and hang with love people. I stay at home when I'm not at work or shopping. There are many issues that this pain causes and though I might get to them all eventually, I guess I'll just start by introducing myself and describing a summary of my pain.
Through the years it gets worse. I'm now worried about finances in the future and how long I will be able to walk and care for my school age son. It began in my lower back across the entire lower back, with a burning sensation, and if it was touched firmly it would ache deep with in for a few moments. And pain while walking, tingling and numbness in my arms. I received cortisone shots at age 25. They helped a lot, but only for a short time. Through the years the areas of pain has spread. First to the entire low back area all the way to the tail bone, which now can't be touched without causing deep aching and burning, even with just light touch. I'm always afraid of people who come up behind me that they may accidentally bump into my back.
Then a few years later, when I was about 30, the pain spread up both side of my ribcage and wrapped around to the sides of the ribs. This pain feels black and blue to the touch, and no longer feels a tickle, but instead of a tickle, huge amounts of pain. When I bend or twist, or touch my ribs I feel bruised.
Around 34, the pain began in my neck and wrists also. I have severe headaches at the base of my skull, my neck pops and clunks and has limited motion. And many days I feel as though I can't hold my own head up.
By 35, the pain began between my shoulder blades. My ribs feel out of place from the back, but also many times in the front by the sternum. My muscles spasm, and sharp pick like pains shoot through the area in waves. The thoracic spine now pops and clunks, and is almost always screaming in sharp pain and spasms.
Now at 37, my entire body hurts. My knees pop and clunks and crack as well as my ankles and toes. I have a throbbing pain in both hips, loss of sensation in both thighs and in select areas of both calves and feet. Tickle is gone and has been replaced by sharp stabbing pain. The front of my this burn when I walk. The hips pop and burn and ache while walking, sitting, lying. It is difficult to stand after sitting more then 10 minutes. My low back pops and clunks all the time, it aches dully unless touched. It burns to bend, throbbed when laying down. And a new addition this year is rotator cuff pain and popping when moving arms and when at rest. Neck popping and cracking with every move. Difficult to lift head when looking up, sharp pain when I look up and loss of turning movement when looking up. And my arms fall asleep and tingle with pins and needles from the elbow to the wrist, and from the wrist to all the appendages.
I'm tired all of the time. I get 4-6 hours of sleep most nights. But not all at once. My stomach is torn up from the OTC pills and my kidneys are bleeding from the ibuprophen. Tramadol makes me hyper, Vicodin does nothing. And I'm trying to not take anything pill wise for the pain and am beginning to use hot showers, ice, heating pads, and bath soaks when I can. Everything is such a painful chore now. And I don't know how much longer I can keep faking I'm fine. I walk funny now. But I have to keep working. I have no insurance and I am responsible for my son financially. I'm pretty much depressed, frustrated, scared, lost, and isolated (other than work). I'd like to have a social life here with you guys and learn more about chronic pain and how to deal with it. And how to lessen the pain. Any tricks and such to maybe make it lessen up so I can continue to work until my son is grown.
Thanks for reading this. I'm going to read other new members posts now and check out the site. Hope to hear from you all soon
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